Problem number one.
I basically use this thing for self support. This is my inner conscious, where I can live out every dream I can’t accomplish ‘irl’. I’m going to try to sort out one problem at a time in my life, and I guess I’ll just log it on here.
One person I’ve always truly loved is my grandma. I used to go to her house at least 3 times a week, cried every time I had to leave. She was my support system. When I needed someone to vent to and agree with me, almost always, she was there. I enjoyed more than anything talking to her, because she always looked at each situation from my point of view, then gave advice from hers. Of course she was embaressing me alot, but I honestly didn’t care when I was with her, because I was just so happy. Recent events led to me not being allowed to contact her in any way. She’s done wrong by me in few ways, but I’m willing to forgive her, because it’s been going on all of my life, I really don’t care anymore. My parents on the other hand all of a sudden decided they care, but it’s not even about me, it’s about them trying to hurt her, because she was manipulated and cut my dad out of his inheritence (sp?).
Now I pretend I don’t like her, I have to to keep my parents from hating me and constantly yelling at me. She thinks that I hate her too, but I can’t tell her I don’t, I can’t tell them, because it will all resurface in court. I just want my parents to still have support for me, if I decide to see her. I will look like a total two faced brat if I go back to her, but honestly I really do love my grandma, and I want her to know that, I love her more than anyone.
So there’s the dilemma: parents or grandma?
So I’m going to solve problem one, and try to figuare out if I really want her back in my life
ooh what shall I do?
