I suckkkkkkk.
Either I did really bad at practice tonight, or everyone else did really good. I need consistancy! God, I just wish I had one exceptional talent, just one thing I’m really really good at. I’ve heard so many times that everyone is special in their own way, and I can usually pick this out on others, but on me? pfft no. I’m mediocre at everything I do, I’m mediocre looks-wise, I’m mediocre personality wise, I just can’t find anything special about me? I’m just like everyone else in the world..
Oh well, I’m sort of in a bummed mood. I wish I was different. That I would just shut the fuck up sometimes. That I was nicer. That I was more caring. That I wasn’t bi-polar. Which I honestly think I have, I can’t control myself most of the time. I try so hard, but I just go off. I’m violent, foul mouthed, and extremely bitchy. Then I’m sweet as cinnamon, probably the nicest person you’ve met. Then I’m annoying, trying too hard to be funny, bitchy, giggly, all at the same time. It’s like I’m 3 different people, and you never know which one you’re going to get.. So I apologize to everyone in my life, I know I’m not right. But there’s nothing I can about it.
